As many know, I've been doing a lot of heavy reading these days. So far this summer, I can say I have 7 books under my belt...working on the 8th. My Nook Color has been a wonderful addition to the excitement. One book I've really dived into this year was my Bible. Now, don’t get me wrong, I read my bible all the time before, but this year I decided to pick it back up and really read- from the start. So since my Bible reading journey started- I am proud that I have now reached Isaiah. With all my reading there have been a great deal of he begat, he begat…but all in all I've really learned a lot.
Last month while in Proverbs towards the mid to end of the book, I noticed that Solomon ended most chapters by saying that such things were like “chasing the wind”. The first few times, I thought it was interesting and then the more I saw it the more I really started to think about it… what things in life am I wasting time on, like “chasing the wind”. Of course, the first things that came to mind were our conception journey. I thought of all the prescriptions, the surgery, the doctor’s visits- everything -and I thought am I just chasing the wind? I thought about our 15 month journey, starting our 16th month on a new and increased dosage of fertility medications (we’re now on round 4- 3 months at 50mg and now 100mg) the doctor visit the hubby went to and those still scheduled - and I thought are these things the wind?
We know that God is all things and provides all things, we’ve spent a few nights in tears and prayer seeking God for answers, but the same thing continues to come to mind- Gods timing is different from ours- He has a reason. Is it a hard pill to swallow- yes, but that’s where our faith kicks in.
So, we’ve been a little MIA these past few months, but we are still here, still seeking Christ, and still walking along our conception journey. Continue to lift us in prayer as we seek God’s will for us and our precious miracle along our Anderson Adventure.