Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough

Every now and then you have those days. Those days when things seem to always go right, the ones when things all seem to go wrong, the days you think about something you’ve tried to push away, and those days when things just..well..are. Today is one of those days. I've been so proud of myself that I've been able to truly let go of some things (like taking my temp every morning and charting my bbt- all for lent) and have faith that God will work things out. Then out of the blue today, I've just had that feeling of …well…why! I’ve seen so many baby updates from friends, late pregnancy tid bits from friends getting ready to pop, congrats from people finding out what they’re having, promises of spoiling little ones that will soon be here, mothers playfully (I hope) complaining about things their kids are doing—and so much of me wants to just scream WHY. The great part is I’m not allowing myself to question God nor am I allowing myself to be down about it.

Eujon and I had a conversation the other day and he reminded me that God is already doing so much in our home- “we aren’t wanting for anything” he said. We can pack up now and go on a mini vacation if we wanted, we could go and buy a massive flat screen tv (of which he really wants..lol), we can eat out, grill out, or go out when and where we want. He reminded me that some people wish they could do that. Some people are searching for the money, the ability, and the babysitter to just have a night to themselves. For the moment I was calmed by his words, but then today came along and I still wanted to ask that one question…

Honestly, I think this is just that step you go through with any new task. Like when you are trying to diet and you do so well, but that one day comes along when you feel you could and should eat anything you want because nothings really going to change. Then the next day you’re proud that you didn’t give in to the pint of ice cream and you continue on your journey. Maybe today is just that day for me and these feeling are my Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough ice cream. Although I really want to grab a spoon and dig in, I've got to pull through these feelings and know the results will come and they’ll be well worth it.

As always, with prayers, patients and positivity we continue our journey in the  Anderson Adventure

Houston, we’re clear for take off!

Well, with surgery last week, I didn’t get a chance to do my usual Saturday blog update. Nonetheless, here we are with 2 weeks’ worth of info.  Surgery went well. Other than getting there super early and dealing with the arctic temperatures that hospitals have, I must say that everything was smooth sailing. I had to ask questions the next day because the drugs left me completely out of it- looking back its pretty funny, but I really have no clue about most of it..lol

I went back to the doctor a week later, this past Thursday, to have my stitches removed. I must say that I was convinced I was going to pass out and be readmitted to the hospital from their removal. Needless to say, I didn’t pass out and their removal wasn’t as bad as I had set my mind up to be. Micah, my nurse, is awesome! Well, being that I was drug free this go-round, I made sure to ask all my questions to the doctor. Here’s the great news- he said that they did remove the few polyps that were in my uterus lining and after the HSG test (the dye they flush through your tubes), I’m happy to report that both my tubes are open and flowing freely! Now, the silly part about this is that my doctor has now started me on my first round of Clomid- a fertility drug. The hubby and I picked up my first dose today from the pharmacy and both got tickled with the statement “using this medicine may result in multiple pregnancies (twins etc.). Be sure you have discussed this possibility with your doctor”…I was met with the hubby saying “discuss with your doctor, shouldn’t you consult with your husband?!”…I had to laugh! He’s so funny! So, he has now been consulted and in about a week I’ll start the new medication and who knows…we may soon have really BIG news to report..lol!

Also, while I’ve been moving around the house pretty slowly from surgery I've spent a lot of time working with the embroidery. I must say, it’s so much fun to put those creative juices to flow and think of cute new projects. I’ve thought of all the people I know with little ones, and I’ve been busy making little outfits for them. Here are some that I have made in the past few days. The great part is, by the time we have kids I should be a master at this and our kids will have tons! Well, enjoy the designs and clear the runway as we take off to the Clomid journey of our Anderson Adventure!